It is early morning as I type this. I have a full day of grading essays ahead of me, but I give final exams in the next week, and my academic year is winding down. This is the storm before the calm. I am almost there.
The rose bush in my backyard has been covered in buds for weeks it seems, but yesterday I finally saw three blooms bust wide open, and this morning it is covered in bright pink flowers. It’s strange how something as predictable and certain as the change of seasons can be so exciting.
There are certain truths in life – like that winter will become spring every single year without fail – that we tend to forget or ignore or somehow doubt. I feel like this message is chasing me lately. Does that happen to you, too? It’s like everything that I am reading or hearing or thinking is revolving around some center point whispering to be heard and then shouting a little louder until I pay attention to it.
Today’s culture values individual perspectives and stories, and I’m grateful for that. It’s important, and it’s the first step to empathy. But maybe what we lose in the process is the notion of absolute truth. There is the truth and there is my truth and there is your truth. None of those are exactly the same thing, but the absolute truth is the bedrock where you have to begin. We even have a term for this now when someone says truth-bomb. As though that real truth, that uncomfortable thing we try to ignore, is explosive.
I was listening to a podcast recently where someone was talking about this, and she said truth is like a reporter – just the facts, ma’am. The rest of it is stories that we pile on which can have some value but can also be full of false notions sometimes. I love gray area. I love the questions it brings and the changes it can inspire in me. But I lived in that space for so long that I am ready for solid ground, and maybe this truth concept is at the center of that.
I haven’t read any of Augusten Burroughs’ work. (Tell me where to begin if you have!) But I ran across a passage of his on Instagram, and it blew me away. He says, “Nothing you build on inaccuracy or mere hope or longing or lies or laws that oppose the nature of things can endure.” That is a statement of fact. How many times in our lives do we do this? We can build something on inaccuracy, and it can chug along for awhile, but it cannot endure. This is why people can drive expensive cars and file for bankruptcy soon after. Why you get shocking news of someone’s divorce when they appeared to be happy only a few months ago. Why friendships don’t stand the test of time when you don’t have all that much in common to begin with. It is why someone with a beautiful social media feed is often pretty unhappy in reality. The gig is always up eventually. That is not a truth we can change. It’s a universal law.
He also explains, “Whenever I have encountered a block or an issue in my own life it’s because somewhere, hidden in my life, is an inaccuracy and I have to find it. There’s an inaccuracy of the marriage, of the life I’ve built…being a little bit dishonest here and there created a disaster. When I think about all the times I’ve screwed up it was because there was a lie somewhere in my life.” That’s a pretty sobering thought. These lies are not always things that we tell others; in fact, I’d say it’s more likely that they are things we tell ourselves.
I tell my students that writing is like an excavation. You have to chip away at all the layers sometimes until you get to what you really think, what you really want to say. That’s where you strike gold.
Truth is the same way. It is not as subjective as our culture likes to think it is. If someone shows you who they are, you can add a thousand stories to it to explain it away, but what is the truth? Just the facts ma’am. What do their actions show you about who they are? That is the simple truth. If you have patterns in your life that keep reintroducing themselves again and again. What are you doing to create it? One long look in the mirror and all the hard questions. That’s where the excavation starts.
This is hard stuff, but the other side of that coin is that there are some beautiful truths that we can’t deny either.
What I know is true ……
That good things come to those who work hard.
That the life you create is made of a million tiny moments, the things you do every single day.
That patience is a virtue and you will always get better results when you respect the hands of time and withstand the urge to chase something shiny and temporary
That gratitude multiplies on itself and brings you abundance
That lasting happiness is built of your own hands inside of your own self
I think what I know to be true above everything else is that life always gives you what you want. Always. Not like some genie in a bottle delivering us our wishes on command. But what you pay attention to grows and grows. Maybe where we go wrong is that, with all of the other layers we throw on top of it, we lose that pulse of what we really desire, and we want something else instead. Then that thing comes true and we are left with unhappiness anyhow because we chased the wrong thing.
These are hard questions. But where you find the inaccuracies is also where you can follow that path to the truth. You find it, you ask for it, you work for it, and it will come to be. This I know is true. As sure as the earth travels around the sun, as sure as the seasons pass, what you desire will come to you. The challenge is to want the right things.
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Thanks, Eliza. Glad you liked it.
Though it has been many years since I have read his work, I love Augusten Burroughs. I feel like he is the less popular David Sedaris, but I am a bigger fan of Burroughs.
I love Sedaris, so this comparison is a good omen for me. I might add Burroughs to my summer stack.
So very wonderful. It seems that much of life is getting out of our own way. Not an easy task. Such a good reminder.
Thank you for this. You have so much wisdom, and you are willing to share it. You writing has helped me to be a better person.
Thanks so much, George. This is such a heartfelt compliment.
Good luck for your exams friend! This waa a wonderful post! 💕
Read “Dry” ….a great book by Augustin Burroughs. About his personal climb out of the depths of addiction.
Woops I was Wrong. AB wrote running with scissors…sorry. Dry was great but forget author. Need coffee
You were right! I just looked it up and he wrote both Running with Scissors and Dry. I knew he had a memoir about addiction, but I didn’t know much about it. Thanks for this. 🙂
Augustan Burroughs is terrific! I think Kris Carr wrote Dry. Thank you muchly for the topic of this blog, I’ve been living in an unhappy relationship for far too many years now, telling myself lies, frozen with the fears in which some of those lies kept me trapped, and have recently been working on letting some of the untruths seep out. But slowly! Oh, how we begin to think that unhappiness is a normal way to live! The universe has been giving me a myriad of ways to change and I’ve been fighting them. Now, today as I read this wonderful blog, I really feel I can make the painful, but hopefully, cathartic moves to begin a happier, stronger self. My love to you today and always!
Love to you as you make big changes, Mary. ❤
I haven’t posted in awhile and just wanted to say thank you. Reading your essays/blog posts are my own special treat. I am sitting in the beautiful outdoors drinking tea in my exquisite bone china cup and saucer. Reading your writing is a serene, thoughtful experience – especially enjoyed with a pot of tea. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with the world.