I can’t believe July is nearly halfway over. Every teacher I know gets a little panicked as she sees August draw closer, and I am no exception. August is official back-to-school mode (here in the south anyway), and July always feels like I’m in a race somehow. You can only handle the notion of carpe diem a little bit before it can drive you crazy. Am I doing as many things as I can to hold on to summer? Am I moving fast enough on that list of house tasks I was determined to complete? Am I providing enough fodder for memories for my own kids to reflect on one day? It’s enough to make you feel tired sometimes – just thinking of what you want to accomplish before the academic year begins and wondering how summer is passing by so quickly.
I spent yesterday at the lake with my kids, and we had the best time. Just the three of us and a lot of stillness… which to be truthful is not a word I typically associate with my time with these two. But yesterday was about as close to relaxation and serenity as you can get with two kids under six and one adult tagging along.
They loved exploring the shore to find sticks and smooth rocks and a few swimming minnows and drifting feathers.
You can get overwhelmed with the to-do list when you’re parenting kids of any age, but especially kids this small. Last week had us at the ENT office for a consultation on a tonsillectomy, communicating details about an upcoming summer camp for Jude, and working to find a new speech therapist as a result of a pending kindergarten schedule – plus the usual balance of books and naps and meals and sunscreen and laundry and miles of other regular daily routines. But for once, I ignored most of it for a day, packed a bag with towels and snacks and drove somewhere simple that I know they love. We arrived before it became crowded, and watching them watch the world around us granted me the biggest exhale I had all week.
It was such a great day, and I left feeling full and grateful for a lot of things – my summers off, where I live, and these two. I’m thankful for all of it, and I’m trying deliberately to avoid the hurried feeling of not enough to rest in the right now.